"And everyday, let me be like a sunflower; so that even on the darkest days I will stand tall and find the sunlight."
Hey babe risers, it's been a
while since I last chatted with you all. To catch you up, life has been filled
with new things it's almost been hard to keep up. I finished esthetics school,
got my license and officially started taking clients at the salon. I'm so
grateful to make an impact on people not only physically with their skin but
also their hearts. My career path as an esthetician is so much more than making
someone who is 60 look like they're 20 (we wish). It's about conditioning the
heart and soul, loving on others and making them feel undeniably beautiful to
themselves. Since high school, I felt a tug on my heart to go into full
time ministry. In my mind, that meant working for "the big C" aka:
church. Throughout this past year I have patiently learned that your full time
ministry is your life wherever you are, and you can bring that into your work
place. I am fully handing this business over to God and asking him to stretch
me everyday. I ask Him to give me opportunities to speak life into people and
to give them a purpose so much greater than the things of the world they are
seeking. I cannot wait to step deeper into this ministry and see all that God
has in store.
I really want to speak to you
tonight about something personal. Something that I feel I wouldn't normally
shout to the world but I'm in a mood to be transparent so here it goes.
R E J E C T I O N
"Rejection doesn't mean you
aren't good enough; it means the other person failed to notice what you have to
offer."
We're all ladies here, so I am sure
we've all felt those nights of rejection. Where you get dressed in that
glorious outfit you've been waiting wear, hair is on point and your make-up is
actually looking decent, only to arrive to find out you've been rejected. Rejection and abandonment has to stand high up there on the top 10 horrible feelings someone can feel.
Since leaving my job at
Chick-fil-A the Lord put me on this crazy journey of finding and bettering
myself every day. Part of that has been to overcome the rejection and
abandonment issues that I felt from my biological dad not being a part of my
life for the last 21 years. I believe that in the society that we live in today
we deal with rejection on a daily basis, probably more than 100 times a day. You
don't have to have abandonment in your life to say you suffer with rejection.
We reject ourselves when we watch the Kardashians and see the ideal body
society wants us to have, we reject ourselves when we post on Instagram and
don't get as many likes as you did the day before, we feel rejected when our
friend is having an off day and they don't send us their normal happy text. We
feel rejection daily.
So many emotions have been going
on throughout my life recently and through my fellow boss babe risers lives. I hear
stories and my heart just aches for what my sisters are going through. This
very recent story (not to be shared for the secrecy of my girlfriend) made me
reflect on myself on a-whole-nother level. I sat there and felt totally
rejected because of thoughts the enemy placed into my mind. Things like,
"you're really just not good enough for him", "you know, he's
pursuing that other girl that he really likes spending time with" "maybe marriage just isn't in the books for you" or the
best one yet "why would you even begin to think he would like someone like
you?" So there I sat in my car, realizing it was a while back that I cried
that hard, talking on the phone with a beautiful and sweet, sweet friend that
told me it was okay to let it out and it hit me…I am NOT the one being rejected
in this.
Let me explain myself a little
better. I don't know about you but if I think for even one second that someone
I like doesn't want to spend time with me or maybe isn't showing the same level
of flirtation I count that as an immediate rejection. PAUSE. That's a lie. I
had to stop and realize the reality, that I am making a conscious decision that
at this moment he is not the right person for me. It's not rejection it's a
decision. A decision to move on and be better. Focus on my path and my
relationship with God and wait for the best He has to give me. Ladies that is
what we will hold out for…God’s BEST.
Let me send out a little reminder
to you who may be hurting like I was tonight. Hurt, Pain, Anger, Temptation,
Rejection and Abandonment all come from the enemy himself. He comes to steal,
kill and destroy our lives while our God comes to bring us life and life to
it's fullest. Whenever you think you're being rejected from something (we think
is) good, remember that you could be redirected to something so much better.
God makes beautiful things out of our mistakes. I am a living testimony to
that. Do not let the enemy feed you the thoughts and lies that you're not
good enough. We are women warriors that will tell the enemy to put his nose in
a corner because we are NOT having it today. We are holding out for God's
best. If you find yourself constantly trying to prove your worth to
someone, you have already forgotten your value. Stand firm in knowing your
worth in Christ. Trust and be obedient and all other things will fall into
place.
“We are wild and free, we are
never too much and we are ALWAYS enough.”
Thanks for allowing me to be open, honest and transparent with you. I pray that this post will help you realize your worth and all that you deserve.
Until next time lady loves,
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